I feel depressed and sad

Ah see you are living in your head too much. Responding SLOWLY can also be a good thing. If you have a cocky funny style, like me, sometimes you respond too quickly and always say a funny thing, when silince may be better. The other thing I see here is that you are overly concerned with peoples reactions. So what if you say something stupid? Whats the worst thing that can happen? Will it be on the evening news? will it be on tommorrows headlines " Beginner PUA says something stupid. People laugh at him. Video at 11" everyone says stupid shit. Its how you handle the aftermath that matters. So go ahead SAY SOME STUPID SHIT. what you'll find is that the sky dont fall. Then you'll learn to recover. Youll learn that you dont evaporate if you just say what comes to you mind. Say Random stuff. Just get use to the sound of your voice in public. Just recently I went back to public speaking. My first time out I could hear the quaver in my voice. I could see people shifting in their seats. So I lowered the tone. I used my seduction voice.. The quaver went away. Then my mind was free. I said funny shit. The crowd laughed. I said more funny shit. I was on a roll. My dick got hard. So.. go do some public speaking.. Toastmasters. I had a friend once who stuttered. So he became a comedian who did jokes about stuttering.. after a while he had to fake the stuttering!!!

Whenever i
>try approaching women my voice
>wont come out naturally, it
>just is locked in my chest
>even though i want to say
>something, hence some sets i
>dont approach due to this
>exact reason...

The best way to conquer this fear is through acclaimation to the object of fear. Say Hi to woman. When I got back in the game I decided to approach sales clerks .so say hi and to have small chat. I had NO GOAL OF CLOSING. that was key. My goal was say Hi, and engage in small chat. One or two simple questions/observations.. observations being better.

i feel
>depressed, all i want is a
>good nice girlfriend, someone
>i can enjoy my time with,
>someone who i can emotionally
>connect to, someone who i can
>like, someone who likes me and
>respects me.

OK, this is where I would go ZEN on you. DO NOT SEEK and you shall find. When you are looking, woman know. They sense the hunger. They sense the need. They dont want a man WHO NEEDS FROM THEM. So, stop wanting a girlfriend. Want instead a full life. get your validation from you life and woman will follow. IT WILL JUST HAPPEN. It will happen because you project a non needy frame. Woman will sense that you are complete and happy without them.

>
>All my life, i've never had
>anyway like me for me.

Nobody OWES you that. I cant think of a single woman who liked me for me. She liked my company, my humour, the good dicking she got, security, adventure.. and they always overlooked my flaws..my flaws are part of me. So see you are looking for a woman to VALIDATE YOU. two problems with that.
1. You trust her opinion more than yours.
2. You might have things about you that you should change. Lets suppose she validates you. Then lets suppose that Some PUA here picks her up and fucks her senseless. Will that change what you are? well if you live for her validation YES. If you are self validating, NO.

I feel
>i wont ever be successful with
>women. I've tried everything i
>can, i took workshop, i've
>gotten myself out of my
>comfort zone and approached
>women, i've joined hobbies, i
>want to better myself as a
>person. I want to have a
>girlfriend who is beautiful
>outside and inside. Nothing
>seems to working...

If you still WANT a girlfriend then you have not tried everything. You have not tried NOT WANTING a girlfriend. Also be specific about the hobbies and things you have done to better yourself..